disynthetic

The Maori say that the past is what is before us.

An awe-inspiring image of passing beauty
wanting but no longer seeing the fallacy.
A glimpse in passing appetizes the insatiable
an unlikely hero won't change her mind.
It's nothing more than a frenetic, reckless urge.

Fearless trepidation begets reckless desire
as I fall back to nothing just to rise again twofold.
Self subjegation and...
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Pull Harder On The Strings Of Your Martyr

The face and the lips tremble as it rips
Your breath quickening as heat rushes in

Pull harder strings martyr
Stop you cry that's a lie
Flush gasping white reddening
You smile and destroy it- it's time that we end this

It's our curse that makes this world so hopeless
Allowing our king to spread his genocidal...
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How many ways do I love you? One for the dried blood on my favorite shirt, two for the memory of a better time, three for those shards of glass still in my back, four... four for the 4 nights in Chicago, and five. Five; the only thing I could never forget despite the dull aching trepidation, would be the scars on my heart. That...
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Did anyone ever recognize the consistencies and resemblances of fractals and distant universes?

Something to think on.

defeatist

i fall, for the love of self-pity
to give some sad dream replaced
do i crumble from the fall?
or search for a better place?

remembered the comfort
embraced the feel
displaced from solace
solace of hurt bereaved

the control of fear
fear of a heart untold
borne of savagery
remember this place
sweat cold and feeble
always return your face

dying to close...
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Shading

i've seen through the shading
and down to what's within
reaching you will feel me

lost and alone
you said i was what you were looking for
so why do i feel so empty

and it seemed so real
pulled from my grasp taken away
am i nothing in your eyes
reaching out i feel
you were pulling away, never letting me in
i...
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I'd follow endlessly to live the life I've seen
now every passing moment I die but one degree

shall I relinquish my integrity
thereby ensuring that I'll remain unclean

Until my days filled with not untrust and fear
I'll not make one vow to which I won't adhere

I didn't want it this way but I've never wanted to stay
my life take not for...
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Heathen dreams of common needs and unshared desires often come to mind as I ponder what could happen if I just slipped through my self-inflicted barrier of limitation and self-destructive pattern called consequence. I admire patience and envy it more, as I lack it in my most desired pathways of knowledge, creativity, and experience. Now if I could just kick pride to the curb, my...
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I can't stand the way people can be so unconcerned. The reason I made it this far is because of my strong sense of morals and my stronger sense of humor for bloating my self worth. They go hand in hand with me. However my idiosyncrasies, it's a travesty the way people are oblivious to the things they do and the effects their actions have....
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Flesh tendrils are probing their way into my mind and rooting through my memories like a stack of boxes in your grandmother's basement. I'll never give up the search. The search that became a quest. I'll find a meaning to my life, a purpose for my needs. Fulfillment is tertiary, purpose second to none. Yet I doubt and must continue to dismiss the cynic on...
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