In Seeking Identity
I get so angry in the most volatile way, when I contemplate what I am. That is to say, what am I deep down at the barest essential. And my answer to myself, has come back as thus: I am a scared little boy, not more than 9, wanting to know, desperately, if I will survive. Zooming in so close, as close...
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about me. and maybe you.
Is it so absolutely necessary that we always surge forward? Towards the goal at the end of life. Haven't we enough excitement and good fortune during this time, to experience a hundred thousand new beginnings? We, as people, are never satisfied with what we have, it would seem. The constant searching for things we can acquire, things we can take,...
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Is it so absolutely necessary that we always surge forward? Towards the goal at the end of life. Haven't we enough excitement and good fortune during this time, to experience a hundred thousand new beginnings? We, as people, are never satisfied with what we have, it would seem. The constant searching for things we can acquire, things we can take,...
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techno_ballerina:
you and your entries engross and intoxify me. i can't say that for many things these days.
i hope all is well.
i hope all is well.
What if:
A) some things are destined to failure
B) some things are never meant to be
C) someone never sees
D) someone never opens
E) somehow we are different
Though I never claimed to be right
Give to me the benefit of doubt
I brought you fires
That you put out
I brought you fires
For I cannot be without
I came with sadness...
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A) some things are destined to failure
B) some things are never meant to be
C) someone never sees
D) someone never opens
E) somehow we are different
Though I never claimed to be right
Give to me the benefit of doubt
I brought you fires
That you put out
I brought you fires
For I cannot be without
I came with sadness...
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"It is a truism that almost any sect, cult, or religion will legislate its creed into law if it acquires the political power to do so."
-Robert A. Heinlein
"I often dream of huge, numb buildings, jet-black sinister architecture being installed when nobody sees. Their appearance so sudden that few would take notice.
And when I wake up, I imagine being crushed by one--imagining it's...
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-Robert A. Heinlein
"I often dream of huge, numb buildings, jet-black sinister architecture being installed when nobody sees. Their appearance so sudden that few would take notice.
And when I wake up, I imagine being crushed by one--imagining it's...
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How many times have your looked at yourself and felt mistreated.
All your life you been lead to believe you're nothing.
Just learn to trust;
look in my eyes
and I''ll guide you.
You can't ever know:
what it means,
what I say to you.
(chr.)
The pressure it brings
a long time, I know.
What I say to you:
take me, truth and hand.....
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All your life you been lead to believe you're nothing.
Just learn to trust;
look in my eyes
and I''ll guide you.
You can't ever know:
what it means,
what I say to you.
(chr.)
The pressure it brings
a long time, I know.
What I say to you:
take me, truth and hand.....
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pseudobrilliance:
Hope you're well. I attempt to not feel mistreated. I feel like most of my problems are of my own creation. That doesn't mean I don't want someone else to come and fix them, though. That's my downfall.
How many times have you been put to the test?
How many times have you been mislead?
Your faith has been displaced
So many others willing to complace
Half a life away from a common discontent
The life it took from you to sigh
I had to give away
Forgetting the pact;
Lifesaving disarray.
Stone as cold believing;
Hope to getting nearer,
Can I start...
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How many times have you been mislead?
Your faith has been displaced
So many others willing to complace
Half a life away from a common discontent
The life it took from you to sigh
I had to give away
Forgetting the pact;
Lifesaving disarray.
Stone as cold believing;
Hope to getting nearer,
Can I start...
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afakecolorred:
how true. I'm tired too♥
disynthetic:
How many times have your looked at yourself and felt mistreated.
All your life you been lead to believe you're nothing.
Just learn to trust;
look in my eyes
and I''ll guide you.
You can't ever know:
what it means,
what I say to you.
(chr.)
The pressure it brings
a long time, I know.
What I say to you:
take me, truth and hand..
The pressure, it brings
So little time, I know.
I can't take the pain,
to live again...
Open your heart and live again.
All your life you been lead to believe you're nothing.
Just learn to trust;
look in my eyes
and I''ll guide you.
You can't ever know:
what it means,
what I say to you.
(chr.)
The pressure it brings
a long time, I know.
What I say to you:
take me, truth and hand..
The pressure, it brings
So little time, I know.
I can't take the pain,
to live again...
Open your heart and live again.
10:48 AM
Long time coming, here is a review of things.
Being so busy with my job (not career :p), education, volunteer counseling, and music, there's so little time to write down the things bouncing around in my head. Every bit of time for myself (including music in this) is a stolen moment. A portion of some other effort's alotted energy.
Last night, and I...
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Long time coming, here is a review of things.
Being so busy with my job (not career :p), education, volunteer counseling, and music, there's so little time to write down the things bouncing around in my head. Every bit of time for myself (including music in this) is a stolen moment. A portion of some other effort's alotted energy.
Last night, and I...
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lakuna:
dude i appreciate your feedback. in terms of what you've written in this entry i'm commenting on - maybe you could write about the details? the meta-analysis can be confusing even for a nerd like me. what's your job all about and what happened?
expose my dark side
can't you see it?
letting loose a scream
relief as I need it
don't want these thoughts
breathe me in
make me understand
i won't live for never
make me understand
you're there for me
relieves nothing
crashing, impossible
away from the light
i'll find a return
pains of loyalty
this burns, it rips, it hurts
what does it feel, to...
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can't you see it?
letting loose a scream
relief as I need it
don't want these thoughts
breathe me in
make me understand
i won't live for never
make me understand
you're there for me
relieves nothing
crashing, impossible
away from the light
i'll find a return
pains of loyalty
this burns, it rips, it hurts
what does it feel, to...
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lacadence:
I must be lame I don't use any of the features.
lakuna:
hey thanks... 
i say question everything at the same time as you're doing everything, that's the only way i have the time for abstract consideration... but of course there are always limitations to keep us in check. i find the most difficult thing about embracing opportunities is recognizing them and believing that the future could be beneficent.
i say question everything at the same time as you're doing everything, that's the only way i have the time for abstract consideration... but of course there are always limitations to keep us in check. i find the most difficult thing about embracing opportunities is recognizing them and believing that the future could be beneficent.
Can you believe that it is entirely possible to spend a lifetime searching for enjoyment and meaning but going about it entirely wrong? Never realizing? I almost would have assuredly gone on forever thinking like an emotional vampire. And the worst part is being naive to it.
That's alright though. Once you have your 'epiphany' the past is completely forgiveable. Mostly anyway. I'm still not...
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That's alright though. Once you have your 'epiphany' the past is completely forgiveable. Mostly anyway. I'm still not...
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disynthetic:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Just had to get that out.
Just had to get that out.
lenox:
I friended you ^_^ <3
Soon. I will shortly have a satisfactory update prepared for viewing pleasure. After I have finished reading Anansi Boys uninterrupted post-purchase, save this break for juice and a cigarette halfway through, and after I read the second half of the book with equally wide-eyed enjoyment.
Bearing that in mind, please disregard this post and its idiosyncratic contradictions. Thank you, dear innocent (or not so in...
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Bearing that in mind, please disregard this post and its idiosyncratic contradictions. Thank you, dear innocent (or not so in...
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violently:
muahahah <3
eilidh:
hello
hello
xip