disynthetic

defeatist

i fall, for the love of self-pity
to give some sad dream replaced
do i crumble from the fall?
or search for a better place?

remembered the comfort
embraced the feel
displaced from solace
solace of hurt bereaved

the control of fear
fear of a heart untold
borne of savagery
remember this place
sweat cold and feeble
always return your face

dying to close my eyes
as the night gets blurry
i long to be relieved
and enter back to dream

-

with out

let the nightmare begin
calm be left behind
no matter how missed
i leave behind a life
slightly dead on surface
just as once before
i go from life to lifeless

i tremble once
before my last uttered word
hangman's humor
gallow's joke be for sure
they laugh as
not one to be laughed with

falling down from heaven
as i hit all the trees
i had my five minutes
with my head held high
walking tall as if i
actually deserved to

we can't help the
thing I've become
all i can do is become
someone else
all identity lost to me
left on the side of the
road left behind