distorture

i dont get you girls...you do very strange confusing things that really dont follow logic. why play games to test me if your not interested. cos the results from that test would be redundant. unless ofcourse, you really do want me, but have a screwed up way of showing it! plus im clearly annoyed with people thinking im so nice that they have to like me, when i spend the whole time talking about the girl i really want! surely that shows im not interested, then i have to deal with the whole telling them why i dont want to do anything with them when im very drunk and hate saying things that make people upset. and....why dont i get this attention when i actually want it, not just when i dont!

ahwell iv found ways to stop myself potentially messing things up, and hopefully leading the way to making things better. its weird actually being sensible about a girl, and not freaking out and ruining everything just to relieve my anxiety!

on a non-girl related note, im gonna go backpacking in china for two weeks. its gonna be awesome and smelly. i cant wait. well il have to wait until september anyway!