distantcry

i hate ruts...Not eating very well...in two months I've lost 13 pounds...its rediculous...hmm.

need to stretch my ear, why did i lose jasons plugs, damnitt.

So over the past few days some realizations have come to pass. I like prancing around on my underwear and wifebeater. I do not like being naked, even alone. I'm not meant for relationships...anything that might actually work makes me go the other way. The only person to make me feel comfortable with those two last things is my bestfrined that i may not obtain and this particular point and time.

I like attention, which is weird because i use to hate it. i like to smile and get smiled back at. I'm slightly abusive to anyone i care about. I'm opinionated as hell yet cannot make a simple decision. Most people think they want to get to know me and they really dont. I'm not interesting, i just try to be and generally fail.

I guess thats it for now...I'm tired and such.