distant

new things to say, new things to do, newly all about me, newly all about you.

my life as of late. well, the southern hospitality araneda hit on the head seems to have passed. i'm mostly consumed with my job lately, trying to get the store in order before christmas comes around and chaos ensues moreso than it has already. but my efforts haven't gone unnoticed and I may very well be up for the promotion I was hoping I'd be elligible for. as it stands, actually, i'm in the forefront of the running, so here's to hoping *cross fingers*.

i've met someone, although i've known them for a little while now, but i continually rediscover this person everytime we come in contact. she's wonderful and amazing and keeps me on my toes, something that i love. she challenges me to be the best version of me i can be, the one i know deep down i truly am. here's to small steps over not-so-small spans of time to bring myself back to complete, the way i know i am. ooh, and she's a nerd and weird to boot, gotta love that

made a friend at work, it's funny, the little bit of life i and others feel i've actually experienced seems to amount to a great to-do when talking with other people. i'd never realized exactly how much in my life i'd done, tried, exerienced. perhaps not done well, but at least experimented with. my small span of 21 years has been action packed and that's starting to set in and help me understand why sometimes i just feel much older than i actually am

i'm afraid i've learnt something important about myself. i'm probably nearsighted, i'm going to see the optomitrist (sp?) in the next week or so to check my eyes out. if i'm right, then all the computer use finally caught up with me and i'll finally have a reason to wear those super sweet emo frames emily gave me when i moved (other than the fact that i look cute and totally emo in them )

i'm glad this all went down the way it did. closure, happiness, the ability to curb some potentially very big regrets by coming home. i needed this and am glad to have it. my thoughts and prayers are with all those who were left behind, even those who chose to be. i hope you're all doing well for yourselves.

sorry for the lack of updates, the demands of my personal time at work are increasingly frequent but more and more is getting done each day. really nice to know i'm not a complete fuck-up like i once thought. i seem to have found something i'm good at, and not by my own standards, but by an entire enterage of assosciates and customers.... it's good to feel appreciated.

suppose that's all in my life for right now. sorry if i've left anyone hanging who's been concerned, but for the first time in a long time. i'm good, i know where i am. north is north, south is south, and the rest is falling into place as i move along. thanks