disgustipated

now for the letdown after the elation yesterday... I'm afraid I can't afford to take the UT job. It sucks. balls... because I REALLY love the position. I'd be in a spot where i'd be able to learn so many new things. The potential is limitless... but i can't afford to take it because i've put myself in a position where I have too many expenses. The hit to my salary to take the position would be about 40%. I'm not sure why I even thought I could swing it. Not sure why I continued in the process... wishful thinking i guess.

heartbroken.... again.