disdain

passed out again.
tunnel vision. numbness... diziness. then nothing.
don't remember a thing.
woke up on the floor. in a pool of blood. surrounded by friends.
landed on my face this time.
everything is out of whack.
bruised and swollen chin and gums. crooked teeth. my nose is fucked up too... it hurts when i touch it. broken? bruised ribs.
nice. very nice.
luckily there were good people around to help me clean up my blood.
Electra is a hero .
for more reasons than one, actually .

my buddy stayed. all night.
and into the next morning when i started to vomit.
brought me water.
and food.
i needed him there. such a good boy.

i hate being sick.
i hate feeling like i can't take care of myself.
i hate telling people that it's none of their business when they ask where my bruises come from.
i hate the fact that my fucking medical insurance isn't working properly right now.


...everything always falls apart at nearly the same time...



* B.B. King ~ His Best - The Electric B.B. King
* Black Flag ~ Louie Louie
* Utah Phillips and Ani DiFranco ~ Past Didn't Go Anywhere
* Alabama Thunderpussy ~ Fulton Hill
* The Fugees (Refugee Camp) ~ The Score
* David Bowie ~ Outside

...my face hurts... ha ha ha... oh, wait, not funny. well, sorta funny...