I used to be better at this god dammit!
Okay, get a grip. I can make it. I mean, I'm going to fucking HAVE TO in 2 days, and when the time comes, it's going to be the real thing.
Let me back up here, and I'll tell you a bit about what's going on.
As I type this I'm trying my hardest to stay awake until dawn. The reason is that on sunday night at 5:30pm I'm going to be reporting for my first actual shift at the fab and they aren't going to let me go until 6am. And then I go home, sleep and report back at 5:30 again. Then, one more shift on Tuesday, and then I'm done until Saturday. Not too bad, except that I have SO MUCH SHIT TO DO this week. I have to get certified on the machine class I'm going to be in charge of, pass any number of safety and web tests, and learn my actual god damn job. In 3 days. While getting used to a 12 hour long graveyard shift.
Now, understand that I'm not complaining. They're paying me enough to make this worth my while. Actually they're paying me more than enough. And they're also paying for my dental, and setting me up with a pretty sweet health insurance plan that's going to cost me 16 bucks a month and cover EVERYTHING. And if I do well enough, I'll have a pretty nice profit sharing bonus coming my way in a few months, right around the time I become eligible to buy stock at a discount.
But that's the problem. I'm terrified I'm going to fuck up and ruin it. This is my big shot, the gig I've actually been hoping to get: a tech job doing R&D in the SIlicon Valley. This is what I thought I was never going to get, the thing I thought wasn't even possible for me anymore, and now I've got to do it right.
And a good first step is going to be staying up until dawn right now.
But holy shit I'm tired.
Ugh. Hang on you lazy bastard. You can do it. You don't have a choice.
Okay, get a grip. I can make it. I mean, I'm going to fucking HAVE TO in 2 days, and when the time comes, it's going to be the real thing.
Let me back up here, and I'll tell you a bit about what's going on.
As I type this I'm trying my hardest to stay awake until dawn. The reason is that on sunday night at 5:30pm I'm going to be reporting for my first actual shift at the fab and they aren't going to let me go until 6am. And then I go home, sleep and report back at 5:30 again. Then, one more shift on Tuesday, and then I'm done until Saturday. Not too bad, except that I have SO MUCH SHIT TO DO this week. I have to get certified on the machine class I'm going to be in charge of, pass any number of safety and web tests, and learn my actual god damn job. In 3 days. While getting used to a 12 hour long graveyard shift.
Now, understand that I'm not complaining. They're paying me enough to make this worth my while. Actually they're paying me more than enough. And they're also paying for my dental, and setting me up with a pretty sweet health insurance plan that's going to cost me 16 bucks a month and cover EVERYTHING. And if I do well enough, I'll have a pretty nice profit sharing bonus coming my way in a few months, right around the time I become eligible to buy stock at a discount.
But that's the problem. I'm terrified I'm going to fuck up and ruin it. This is my big shot, the gig I've actually been hoping to get: a tech job doing R&D in the SIlicon Valley. This is what I thought I was never going to get, the thing I thought wasn't even possible for me anymore, and now I've got to do it right.
And a good first step is going to be staying up until dawn right now.
But holy shit I'm tired.
Ugh. Hang on you lazy bastard. You can do it. You don't have a choice.
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God, I'm such a geek.