dirtyprettything

just got back from burning man... had a blast, mentally, physically, and emotionally.

it was nothing that I expected, but everything I wanted. I just hope it stays in me, because I like how I feel, and don't want to lose the perspective I have now.

A week ago, I was looking down at the ashes, waiting and crying for my rebirth. It seemed so hopeless, I was ready to spit and walk away, and started waiting for life to end. Well, I came back, and the ashes have dissappeared. The sadness still lingers, but that's just life's way of tapping me on the shoulder, reminding me that I'm human, and that my journey has just begun.

This week I said goodbye, I said no, and I learned that beauty is everywhere, but most importantly beauty is in yourself. My tears were wiped away, I learned how to breathe, and opened myself to the kindness and love of others. I got to see how fucked up my life has been, and that I have a lot of good things to bring to the world. I learned that my scars are beautiful, and to not be ashamed of them.

Sure, I'm still scared, but I'm not hiding from the world anymore. It's my life, MY world... and it's beautiful.