Happy 2007!!!!
Big changes in the wind.
Spent New Year's in Denver, and even though I was surrounded by snow and cold, I was swept off my feet and convinced myself that this is where the next chapter in my life will be. My school is there, and it is fantastic. The person I've fallen in love with is there too, and I can't help but see this as a serendipidous opportunity that I must follow. Everything in my being is pulling me there, both in my plans for my professional future, and in my heart.
So two days ago, I returned to L.A., with packing boxes in hand, and a somewhat heavy heart. I've met some wonderful people here in my 5 months as an L.A. resident, and I'm really sad to leave them. But I know that the good ones will stay in my life, regardless of where I am, and will be happy to see me follow my bliss. But still, it makes me sad, as I'm leaving pretty soon (in 3 weeks), and will have to start my goodbye's soon.
As wonderful as it's been, it's also been a difficult few weeks - oh how things tend to like being at the extremes, not happy to just dwell in the middle. One of my cats has been terribly ill, and the vets I've taken her to cannot determine what's wrong with her. If she doesn't improve in a couple weeks I have to take her to a specialist, which I know will be expensive. Money aside though, it's killing me to see her suffer.
My health's also not been good either. A recent (and long overdue) trip to the doctor showed that my health's not as optimum as I'd like it to be. 4 more visits and a half dozen biopsies later, and I'm told it's not cancer - yet. All I can do is keep going back for more tests/biopsies every 6 months, keep myself healthy, and hope for the best. It's a jolt to your system to be reminded of your mortality this way, but I can take a step back and see the good in it, that I ultimately don't have control over some things and all I can do is live for today and love every moment of it.
So that's exactly what I'm doing. Chin up, and keep moving forward.
Big changes in the wind.
Spent New Year's in Denver, and even though I was surrounded by snow and cold, I was swept off my feet and convinced myself that this is where the next chapter in my life will be. My school is there, and it is fantastic. The person I've fallen in love with is there too, and I can't help but see this as a serendipidous opportunity that I must follow. Everything in my being is pulling me there, both in my plans for my professional future, and in my heart.
So two days ago, I returned to L.A., with packing boxes in hand, and a somewhat heavy heart. I've met some wonderful people here in my 5 months as an L.A. resident, and I'm really sad to leave them. But I know that the good ones will stay in my life, regardless of where I am, and will be happy to see me follow my bliss. But still, it makes me sad, as I'm leaving pretty soon (in 3 weeks), and will have to start my goodbye's soon.
As wonderful as it's been, it's also been a difficult few weeks - oh how things tend to like being at the extremes, not happy to just dwell in the middle. One of my cats has been terribly ill, and the vets I've taken her to cannot determine what's wrong with her. If she doesn't improve in a couple weeks I have to take her to a specialist, which I know will be expensive. Money aside though, it's killing me to see her suffer.
My health's also not been good either. A recent (and long overdue) trip to the doctor showed that my health's not as optimum as I'd like it to be. 4 more visits and a half dozen biopsies later, and I'm told it's not cancer - yet. All I can do is keep going back for more tests/biopsies every 6 months, keep myself healthy, and hope for the best. It's a jolt to your system to be reminded of your mortality this way, but I can take a step back and see the good in it, that I ultimately don't have control over some things and all I can do is live for today and love every moment of it.
So that's exactly what I'm doing. Chin up, and keep moving forward.
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trocc:
hey you - was thinking about you the other day, realized i haven't heard from you in months. i hope the move went well and that you are enjoying life. it'd be wonderful to hear what you're up to, i miss seeing you around. 
amadio:
Are you married yet? Wasn't that supposed to be last month?