dirtypigeon

bleh

one word, a whole load of emotions. i hate being girl. i hate the fucking rag, my hair wont look like hair my make up wont make my eyes look like eyes and im bleeding to death.

weekend alone with some books and the computer, and im supposed to be looking forward to this shit?

bleh

valentines day was fun, i got treated to daredevil and popcorn, i was smiles all round.

back to the old university doings, need to do some of that reading, i have books, im so prepared but not at all eager.

looking forward to tomorrow, the boys birthday so im kitting myself out in proper sg ways in my best under garments.

wheres my summer?

thinking about the fact i never really write anything of interest on here makes me wonder if i ever say anything interesting or whether i just make continuous noise.

i wish i had something interesting to say about today, about this week. but i dont. 02 awarded me a free 8 on my fone so im happy. cant get it till friday though. and i...
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its gonna break my heart when im not here anymore. i hope youll miss me too! if i were a suicide girl i wouldnt have this problem, if i didnt have a naked issue, then i would have that problem.
anyway
im trying to buy a house, im trying to be a better person and im trying to do the best with what ive got....
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well well well. where have i been. oh yeah, village living. crapola.

anywhere back here, still with the lovely mister, still with the happiness, still with the tea drinking. all is well,

my time here runs out soon, i sob heavy sighs.

everytime i burp tonight it tastes of psata. gross.

being in lincoln is much more fun than a vilage, getting drunk last night was fun, dancing like my friends indie boyfriend, ballroom dancing too punk and ska, my the skies were filled with happiness.

and today was pretty dull cos i havent done fuck all, was gonna get my hair changed but that never happened....
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why does it always look like rain? crap weather rules again, love of the english isles eh?

an exciting week of shopping and such lies ahead, really filling out my role of being a girl. happy and in love again. *sigh*

i just ate a bowl of custard and jam. yummy. now i feel sick.

cup of tea time.

i want to go back to lincoln, where there is life. villages are the low of being bored, theres nothing to do, even if there was it would be full of the inbred cliques i go to lincoln to avoid.

trying to stay awake
trying not to fight
hoping to get drunk

boredom, boredom everywhere and i dont want to drink.

nothing to do today but sit and watch twin peaks, spose its a tailored kind of fun. its not snowing so much down here. i want snow.

gosh - 2 days til christmas, how excited am i? so very excited.

although the more days that pass the closer my membership is to running out *sigh* best be making the best of this then.

its beginning to look a lot like christmas.

just spent an age wrapping presents for those i love, ace fun. excited about seeing my baby all over christmas. excited about getting killer drunk over the next month.

*ring ring ring ring*
pigeon - hello darlin
george - i love you, i fucking love you, i love you.
pigeon - aww fuck i love you too baby
george - i do

*sigh*