Taste of Madison went real well, but since the 8th, I have been here in Brownsville Texas with my family. My beloved (singer, musician) grandfather is slowly dieing of cancer. He cannot eat because all his food goes into his lungs. So all we can do is make him feel loved and comfortable. It is hard to loose people that you love so much, but lately I'm getting used to it. Between my divorce and this, would it be any suprise If I just snapped? My heart wants to love, but through my frustration, anger and hatred begin to poke through the surface of my loving heart. I am broken @ times and I feel like breaking those around me that are partially responsible. Emotional vengence? Justice? No, just more bullshit to talk myself out of....I need peace! And a joint........ 