dirtyground

so, this is it.

i think, for now. if you need to reach me, anybody... ask around.

roby... i'll still always love you, and you know that. i'm sorry that i've not been good enough. i want nothing more, and i mean that, as in, there is nothing more than i would want at all, for us to work this out. i'm under a lot of pressure right now... i don't want you to hate me for moving here. i got scared. i know i'm not a "man". real men don't cry on the phone to their girlfriends. real men don't get scared. i'm not anything but scared for you, and again me for me. i don't want you to hate me for having you move out here. i thought thats what you wanted. i'd do anything for you. aubrey, i would die for you... i would sacrifice anything for you.

if these are the last words i say to you, i want you to know that i hope that you find what makes you truly happy. i love you with all my heart. don't ever forget that.

♥n