dirtyground

robin called me a creepy sg collector. ouch.

so to nurse that wound, im typing out this: ive been on this site, in one form or another, for a number of years. i first read about it in buddyhead when there was i think about 6 girls on the site. then i met heather in 2001 at a concert and dated her breifly, but during that time she took her first set. ive talked to louise online forever and i decided to go balls-out and get a membership. cut to a few months later i asked Roby out and am now head-over-ass in love with her. i talk to her every day (as you prolly know its long distance for the next couple of months) and would do anything for her.

i mean, i wasnt pissed off at the 'creepy' part. i was more upset at the collector part, because thats the last thing i want to come off as. yeah, i talk to the girls. i try to be friendly. i met naudia and skylar this way. its not like i sit here and go 'which SG can i lech over' cause thats NOT what im about. like i said. i've found my dream girl and i refuse to be seen as some dude. i have learned the error of my fanboy ways and have realised that despite the fact they are just pictures and words on my computer that these girls are just as real as the hands that im typing with.

robin was one of my favorite girls on here and i'll readily admit i was a geeky fanboy for a while. but i think, in my humble opinion - which hopefully wont get me zotted - that some of the girls forget that to a lot of these dudes they are whatever the dude reads into them. the dudes generally think theyre some special being... and thats a role that an SG kinda has to accept whenever they sign up for this site. and conversely i think a lot of these dudes forget that these are real girls.

talking to an SG is kind of like talking to William Shatner in that you know that they mean a lot of different things to a lot of different people. but William Shatner is a real person too.

so the creepy part i can deal with as i pulled a few fanboy errors. but for anyone thats reading this i in NO way want to be seen as someone thats a collector of these girls. maybe Robin's comment just fucked with my pride a little as - im sure im reading into it - she made it sound like i was dating Roby specifically because she's an SG. as far as i'm concerned i have the best girl on here and to even HINT that i'm just in it for the scene points is pretty crass.

anyways. don't zot me. i was sensed my pride was being tampled on so i decided to do what any sensible guy would do and stand up for myself... even if it IS an SG that said that.

i'll probably edit or take this down if this ruffles anyones feathers so i'll leave it as is for now.

love,
♥n

updated: still. i AM over analyzing what she said, i know this. even if it WAS in sarcasm or in jest, i still agree that it wasn't the best choice of words, y'know?