so... the reason for the edit.
somebody fucking console me.
my grades. i got a D in psychology. that pisses the fuck out of me. i cant believe... in the one class i was told the whole way through i was doing fine in, i got a D. i can't fucking believe it.
i just can't stand doing more school. for a degree that may or may not mean shit when i get out ("so, mr hepburn - how do you plan to use your theater degree here at Starbucks?"). it just seems like a waste of time. you cant TEACH talent. you can teach skills, but if you don't got it you don't got it. I know i've got "it".
if anything, i know i have that. at risk of sounding like a cliche (or just flat out narcisstic), i know i have that "it" quality. i've always been told that and that - in my darkest hours - has been all i've had to go on. the fact that people want to see what i want to show them. people want to work with me and i'm good at what i do... i know THAT much.
this isn't something i cant bounce back from, its just ridiculous sitting in a classroom daydreaming about doing movies in LA. people don't go TO chicago... they come FROM chicago.
so i walked up to 711 to get a pack of cigarettes and thought about it. i have 2 options:
1) go to chicago for another year.
pros: get my shit done and hopefully transfer to UCLA or another good school in the LA area.
cons: waste $14,000 and a year of my youth.
2) go to LA, get an apartment and a good job, and go to each and every audition.
pros: "make it", do what i really want to do.
cons: piss off my parents and get labelled a failure - not "make it" and be miserable for the rest of my life.
ask around.
is a degree really worth it, for my line of work?
♥n
somebody fucking console me.
my grades. i got a D in psychology. that pisses the fuck out of me. i cant believe... in the one class i was told the whole way through i was doing fine in, i got a D. i can't fucking believe it.
i just can't stand doing more school. for a degree that may or may not mean shit when i get out ("so, mr hepburn - how do you plan to use your theater degree here at Starbucks?"). it just seems like a waste of time. you cant TEACH talent. you can teach skills, but if you don't got it you don't got it. I know i've got "it".
if anything, i know i have that. at risk of sounding like a cliche (or just flat out narcisstic), i know i have that "it" quality. i've always been told that and that - in my darkest hours - has been all i've had to go on. the fact that people want to see what i want to show them. people want to work with me and i'm good at what i do... i know THAT much.
this isn't something i cant bounce back from, its just ridiculous sitting in a classroom daydreaming about doing movies in LA. people don't go TO chicago... they come FROM chicago.
so i walked up to 711 to get a pack of cigarettes and thought about it. i have 2 options:
1) go to chicago for another year.
pros: get my shit done and hopefully transfer to UCLA or another good school in the LA area.
cons: waste $14,000 and a year of my youth.
2) go to LA, get an apartment and a good job, and go to each and every audition.
pros: "make it", do what i really want to do.
cons: piss off my parents and get labelled a failure - not "make it" and be miserable for the rest of my life.
ask around.
is a degree really worth it, for my line of work?
♥n
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try to develop a reel (a collection of scene work from any kind of films you've done). reels help attract the attention of agents..agents are a vile necessity in this world of show business.
auditioning is easy.....getting the audition is hard. this is not an easy town. if you can transfer in toUCLA, do it. it is always better to have a structured life at first when moving to a huge sprawl like LA. actors are lazy, daydreamers.....
....structure gives us a backbone. you'll need a spine to survive this town.
i get rejected many times each week and i realize that i am lucky to have the opportunity to actually get rejected....many never get the audition. that's a fucked up mind set....that's this industry.
good luck....LA will always be here. calm down and ask yourself what you really want.
again....good luck.