dirty__1

So last week I was a complete dumbass..I am an Ebay addict.. I get an e-mail from Pay-Pal, which is a SECURE SERVER, saying I needed to update my info. Dummy me I think nothing of it, since it looks all legit & like it really did come from Pay-Pal, & update my debit card info INCLUDING MY PIN #!!! What a dumbass I know... It was a total scame. Fuckers got me for a little more than $500 bucks before my bank caught it!! Since I gave out my pin # it was considered gross neglegents on my part soooooo I'm fucked. I can't get ANY of my money back! So that means I have about 40-50 bucks till the first of next month... Not very happy right now. Looks like I'll be using that credit card I been trying so hard to pay off!

I talked to my friend Becky fri. afternoon. With me & Becky it's a weird situation. Ever since we met almost 2 yrs ago there's always been a little more than friends but living 7 hours apart made it kida hard for us to ever be together. So we've just been really good friends. Yeah we both would get a little jealous when the other one would find someone but we, or I at least, would be happy for the other one. Gabrielle has never liked Becky..why, just because she knows there's something there, but not.. I've always called Becky no matter who I was dating or what was going on in my life. Seems like when Becky would get a new b/f I would stop getting calls or if I called her she was always busy..UNTIL she had problems, then she'd wanna talk alot. She's made comments over the last couple months like "Why can't we just be together? It'd be so much simpler.". When i talked to her after my friend Chris died in July before i got off the phone she said, "I love you." I'm sure I could take that as just a friends "I love you" but I don't know....

So anyway I get a call from her fri. afternoon (after i had been trying to get ahold of her the last 2-3 weeks & she'd tell me to call her back later & she'd never answer/be there..) she knows Gabrielle is always here during the day & HATES her calling..She was just asking me how I was, how my mom was since her wreck & just asking what's been going on & how things where here. then she says something about her & her b/f being down in TN. last weekend & she say's "Didn't i talk to you then?". Yep that was one of those times she was busy shopping & told me to call her back later & then she didn't answer & never called back. Then she starts saying that her & her b/f have just about got their house decorated... HOUSE?? I was just like ooookaayy..She was like "Oh yeah we have a house...." Well allrighty then...& just left it at that...She tells me to call her back when I'm "free to talk". I just don't feel like talking to her right now...

The BIGGEST reason me & Gabrielle aren't together is her! Gabrielle couldn't stand me talking to her BUT I wasn't going to be one of these guys that stop talking to his female friends because of his g/f...Look where that got me... I'm just really dissappointed in Becky. Seems like..I dunno, just like this friendship that she always says means sooo much to her really just doesn't...

Plus I had a damn family reunion Sat.. i hate them. It was my moms side & I knew my aunts, uncle, a couple couzins & that was it! Plus there is no one my age at all soooo..yeah WOO HOOO big fun!

I'll stop rambling now...

Hope everyone is having a good week!