dirty__1

How can someone you love make you hurt so much?? Why is it that I some how find myself in a relationship that I don't want to give up on even though I feel it slipping farther away every day..Why do I keep holding on? Am I still that in love, so in love that I would sit back and have my stomach in knots everyday? Should I just let it go?
YOU SAID YOU'D NEVER LEAVE NO MATTER WHAT!! Now your not so sure...now you don't know if you can deal with it all.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.I'm sorry I can't give you what want. I'm sorry that it's not my fault, that I'm not in control of this one. This one's in Gods hands now.
It's not up to me what happens next, but if you go, go knowing I love you and my life will never be the same withought you. I can never tell you how much you helped me.
If you go I can never explain to you how bad it will hurt me. I can never tell you how much I'll miss you. If you go I don't want you to look back, because I can't. Not this time.
If you walk away this time it's all on you. This isn't what I want.
So for now I'll just sit and wait, trying to keep the faith you'll still be here in the end. Believing that you meant what you said all those days and night when you sat next to me and helped me pull through. My lifes not the same without you...
I'm still here..I'll always be here...............................forever..