I swear I'm not a complete Debbie Downer! I'm really not I promise it's just that I'm finding it harder & harder to find the positive things to focus on... I'm one of the first people to stick up for people not being able to do stuff as much once you get older bc of work, kids & just being a fucking grown up. That was one of the biggest things me & my ex fought about when she felt the need to constantly drive 2 hours to go visit friends when we had very little time together as it was. It was an even bigger issue on weekend I had my daughter but she wanted to go hang out... I dunno, that's a whole different conversation!
ANYWAY... Summer is in full swing now & it's crazy how hard it is to pin down anyone to do anything with. I'm anywhere from 20 minutes to 2 hours away from the vast majority of my friends & even at that when they're free I can't drag anyone out for anything. I'm one of the last people to just do really very last minute things these days, I will if I'm asked but I don't drop stuff on people last minute. I have tried to plan shit out MONTHS in advance but it still doesn't work out.... I have zero problem doing stuff completely solo, the problem is I can't get around a lot of places solo anymore.
I guess I'm just really, REALLY, missing the days I could just hop in my car & go where ever whenever & not be depending on anyone. I miss just getting in my car & cruising the back roads for hours sometimes at 3-4 in the morning to blow off steam. I was always the type to go just about anywhere & just take an entire day for myself checking out little shops, bars, restaurants, whatever. I probably still would if I was driving & just a little more capable of handling things without anyone with me, not that I need this massive amount of help or anything. I do know that I need a multiple day road trip right now! I just know that this summer I'm busting my ass to get back to being more independent & less dependent on other people. The work outs & oh so fun diet has already started. If don't get a change of pace I'm probably going to lose my shit soon! lol