I should really be working on class stuff right now buuuuut... My brain is just fried right now. We just finished up our group projects, which I'm REALLY happy of in some ways but now we're going solo, which I'm really happy about too but it can be hard switching gears like that.
I haven't slept worth a damn the last week or more.. Like now, I'm sleepy but I just don't WANT to go to bed. I just feel like I have so much to do that I need to be up, but what am I doing? Yeah not really doing homework that much is obvious!
I'm just very unmotivated lately. I have a million and one things bouncing around in my head. I just feel stuck right now. Almost everyone I know is actually doing something with their life. Everyone's graduating/graduated college, getting jobs, moving away, getting married, having kids, going here, going there & then there's me... Granted I physically CAN'T run & go like everyone else I should still be doing SOMETHING. Part-time Art classes online is like a lot of work but it doesn't feel like I'm doing much compared to others..
I had been wondering about my friend Kat who joined the Air Force back in '02-'03 because after she went to basic we lost contact. We had a mutual friend but we both had a falling out with her so I've had no way to get ahold of Kat. Finally I found out she was on MySpace & I tracked her down on there & found out she's over in fucking Iraq! She's actually stationed over in Japan right now but she's been in Iraq since Jan.
It's a weird history between the two of us. It's one of those things were we both really really liked each other but by the time we both found out it was to late, she'd moved about 12-13 hours away. I never thought I'd be able to do a long distance thing but this is the one and only girl I think I could trust. The last time I talked to her was like 3 years ago & at that time she'd been mved away for well over a year & apparently there was still some feelings there on her part... She always said "Well it's to late now." so I never brought it up... I dunno, can you tell I've had her on my mind a lot lately?
I think I'm going to try & update all my albums tomorrow & maybe post a few class projects too... I just feel better after I put stuff out there..even if it sucks. I just need to be brave enough to put it out there again.
Well I'm going to TRY & get a few hours sleep now. Later all!
I haven't slept worth a damn the last week or more.. Like now, I'm sleepy but I just don't WANT to go to bed. I just feel like I have so much to do that I need to be up, but what am I doing? Yeah not really doing homework that much is obvious!
I'm just very unmotivated lately. I have a million and one things bouncing around in my head. I just feel stuck right now. Almost everyone I know is actually doing something with their life. Everyone's graduating/graduated college, getting jobs, moving away, getting married, having kids, going here, going there & then there's me... Granted I physically CAN'T run & go like everyone else I should still be doing SOMETHING. Part-time Art classes online is like a lot of work but it doesn't feel like I'm doing much compared to others..
I had been wondering about my friend Kat who joined the Air Force back in '02-'03 because after she went to basic we lost contact. We had a mutual friend but we both had a falling out with her so I've had no way to get ahold of Kat. Finally I found out she was on MySpace & I tracked her down on there & found out she's over in fucking Iraq! She's actually stationed over in Japan right now but she's been in Iraq since Jan.
It's a weird history between the two of us. It's one of those things were we both really really liked each other but by the time we both found out it was to late, she'd moved about 12-13 hours away. I never thought I'd be able to do a long distance thing but this is the one and only girl I think I could trust. The last time I talked to her was like 3 years ago & at that time she'd been mved away for well over a year & apparently there was still some feelings there on her part... She always said "Well it's to late now." so I never brought it up... I dunno, can you tell I've had her on my mind a lot lately?
I think I'm going to try & update all my albums tomorrow & maybe post a few class projects too... I just feel better after I put stuff out there..even if it sucks. I just need to be brave enough to put it out there again.
Well I'm going to TRY & get a few hours sleep now. Later all!