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So I had Breeann for a few hours lastnite & normally mom's here when Amanda (Bree's mom) come to pick Bree up. Well mom had to go into work for a few hours, leaving it just me & Bree here. Normally when Amanda gets here her little boy (Logan) & Bree run around & play for a few minute while mom & Amanda talk, I usually just sit back & listen chimming in here & there. Well when Amanda gets here the kids start running around like usual, Bree says something about mom being gone.... Well Amanda makes some comment about me being here solo or what ever & I just replied with an "Oh well. I do it everyday."

When they go to leave I head outside with them. We were outside & the kids started running around & playing so me & Amanda just started talking about random stuff. Well the conversation just keeps going in all sorts of directions..she asked about what my prognosis is for my recovery & I just told he that no one can really say for sure really, because well they can't.

At one point she asked me about Gabrielle. I just told her that she wasn't in the picture & just very vagely(sp?) touched on why she wasn't around anymore.

Then she got off on subjects about when we used to date, she gets off onto a story about one time, I'm guessing not that long ago, that she was mad at her husband, the kids were gone so she just got wasted.. What. Wait... What?!? Yep miss church girl, who who tries to come off like she doesn't do anything like that is telling me stories like this about herself..

So we get onto the subject of wanting more kids & she asks me if I am able to even have anymore kids. I just told her that I hadn't really talked to a Doc. about it but everything that I've looked into says yeah I can. She said something about "Just not the traditional way though right?"... It really caught me off guard that she would ask something like that.. Then she just flat out asked if I could ya' know...... Where the hell was this shit comming from???? I mean She was laughing & saying that she was just asking but that shit threw me there... I just started laughing & just gave a half ass answer & she kinda persisted a little...

So we just kept talking & it was getting a LITTLE chilly outside but I was curious as to where this was all going. WOULDN"T YOU BE???

The subjects kept refering back to when we were together & just different things that have happened to us along the way. She's been throwing out comments here & there, just waiting for me to bite I know, for a month if not more. Like we'll be talking about Bree & she says she doesn't think Bree looks like her, which she does. I'll always say that I think she does. Amanda always has a reply of "Aw you'll alway have a reminder of me.". I always just laugh & go on. She'll make comments about how she's put on weight & so on..(which after 2 kids she has... , but hey 2 kids she's allowed) So she made her comment about Bree & I just said that it wasn't really a bad thing. She just laughed & was like "So you don't hate me anymore?" (Which I did to the very core of me) So I just flipped it back & was like "It's o.k. you can say it, you hated me..." She just said I wasn't one of her favorite people for awhile. So then comes a story of how some girl kinda hit on her husband & she got insecure & jealous. She was saying how she missed her old job at Goody's & how she wouldn't get hit on anymore because she's got 2 kids & she's put on weight... So I bit again... I just made the comment, "Ya know Amanda that really shouldn't matter."

It was kinda funny too b/c when the kids would come over around us she'd kinda send them off playing..lol
Throughout the whole conversation there were comments about her sitting home alone all the time b/c her husband works midnights now..& how really boreing & lonely it is. Just random comments along those lines...
Before she left she brought up one of the most random things... She said "Do you remember offering to get me a divorce attorney?"
uuummm no...
"You honestley don't remember that??"
I'm not gonna say I didn't because it sounds like something I'd have said..
"You did. I remember it because I think it was right after my honeymoon."
o.k....

She's getting ready to go & I say something about having to get online to do some stuff for class. Her response is "Stay off those porn sites now!" LOL She just made some off comment about how "bad" I used to be..
Oh & you were so good huh? You were right there with me!
"I wasn't that bad!"
-'bout that time Bree comes back over..
Oh & as far as the um ...
--she covers Bree's ears
"What?"
The umm.. the p-o-r-n goes.... I seem to remember SOMEONE going right along with that....
"That's been destroyed RIGHT??"
Before we broke up....
"Good"
She's just laughing the entire time..

So then I see headlights comming up my driveway..I thought maybe mom was home..
NOPE!! It was my g-ma! My mom had been trying to call my for almost an hour & a half. I didn't answer so she got worried & asked my g-ma to come by the house! LOL

So Amanda went ahead & headed home. As I'm going inside I ask my g-ma what time it was... "About 8:30-9:00"
Damn!!!! I had been outside with her for almost 2 hours talking! We haven't talked that long in over 3-4 years..
Then she CALLS ME a few minutes later to see how much trouble I was in. lol So we talked a few more minutes & I got another call When I went to switch over I figured she's just get off the phone..nope she waited while I took the call. Then she tells me she's trying to figure out how to keep Bree from saying anything about how long they were here... Hhhmmm... So I'm gonna call her tomorrow night & see what Bree said.