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So it's week 4 of class. Grades from last week will be up tomorrow. I'm fairly sure I'm still holding strong with an A! I'm hoping anyway. It just occured to me yesterday that this is a 5 1/2 week class & it's already week 4!! That good I guess. It's flown by so quickly. I still need to get my webcam for my next class comming up. Yeah..it's a speech class on-line... This should be interesting to say the least. I'm not that fond of speaking in front of people anyway but to do it online is REALLY gonna feel weird...Ah it'll be o.k....Right??

I been wanting to get into quad rugby ever since I heard about it.. So Sat. mom & Bree went to town & I had them buy me a soccer ball so I ould start to practice handleing the ball. So I spent a hour or so Sat. night & Sun afternoon playing catch with my daughter. It's good practice & therapy for my arms. Plus it's just fun with Breeann. Good times!!


So she started moving stuff out Fri...Despite the fact I basically hate her & she makes me sick....this is a 3 yr chapter of my life getting slammed shut! I sat & cried, yes I cry, while she packed her stuff. It's hard when you sit & tell someone that you just feel really unwanted & unneeded. Then they tell you that it's not just you but they don't want to have any kind of physical or emotional relationship with anyone. When in reality you know they already have someone else & have had for MONTHS. They sit & tell you how much they still love you but you know they haven't wanted to be here for months now....What am I supposed to feel?? I'm angry, hurt, scared, lonely, sad...I just don't want to trust anyone for a long time...I'm just really lost right now..