dirty__1

that is such great news and i am so glad to hear it. it seems like it can only start getting better from here. i haven't been in a pool in years, but i remember how your body just feels totally different in the water. if water didn't terrify me so much, i would probably be swimming all the time.

YAY YAY YAY congrats on the progress!

well i don't know what i pressed on the keyboard to make my comment post before i was done writing it, but i guess that happens sometimes...and twice.

anyway, what i was going to say was it sucks to have to rely on other people in order to do things. a certain dignity definitely comes with independence and i'm sure you will gain some indepependence back over time. and as far as having friends not stop by...that is lame too. but i would call them if i were you. actually invite them over to hang out or watch a movie and eat pizza. they should be thoughtful enough to call you, but i say call them. at least it will give you something to do.

[Edited on Mar 05, 2005 6:52PM]

I stayed with my ex for along time after I got hurt. She had been through alot with me. I guess for a while I almost felt like I owed her or something.
I garentee I would be writing the same journal entrie if we were still together and she read my comments. Anyway I hope you figure it out and not drag it out for years like I did.

Things are always like, there is always at least ONE person that gets to you in a way that other people don't...and it doesn't work out for whatever reason....but you go on through life in one way or another comparing every other person to them...maybe not even comparring......but you always wonder and even though they may fade in your heart they will never disapear.

if the drinking thing is honestly just bothering you just because she is taking care of you, then you should know that it is ALWAYS OK TO ASK THAT YOUR CARE PROVIDERS ARE SOBER ENOUGH TO DO THEIR JOB.
On ther other hand, don't bring it up with her when you are pissed, or when she is already drunk. Wait until you are both sober and in a good mood, and then bring it up to her.

Also, you might want to consider trying to find someone else to help you out a couple of nights a week. There is nothing more dangerous than trying to have one person do all your care without a night off. She should still be able to have her time to go out and party. If she doesn't, she will wind up resenting you and it could completely destroy your relationship.

I hope I am not butting in, just figured a little advice would be welcome, I have been dealing with the care provider situation for about 16yrs now, and there is an art to it. Some of what I said may be irrelevant to your situation, I am not sure what your exact disability is, so forgive me if I have made assumptions that aren't warranted.

Since I'll be very busy tomorrow..Happy Valentine's Day 1 day early.