What of mine can I uniquely offer?
Not the first to love you
Nor shall I be the last.
The aching bliss of your presence,
The soothing wash of your voice
So shallow in contrast to the hollow void of your absence.
Gladly would I sacrifice
My place in eternity just for you to sigh.
The brightness of the pallette of your life
Holds me back from the canvas...its too perfect as it is.
Sitting outside in a snowbank
Colours above me mirroring my soul.
Your voice has revived my creativity
Realms of possibility have reopened to me.
Yes, I'm still alive...haven't gone and blown myself up working the oilfields of Alberta yet. You can't get rid of me that easily
. I've easily travelled more than 1500 kms over the past 3 weeks going from location to location, and they've paid me handsomely for it. Now if only I could see some of it instead of it all going to credit card debt 
Being out alone all this time though has got me thinking about my romance woes and whatnot...coincidentally I think I'm in love with someone. Not that kinda love where everything's sunshine and wildflowers though...the kind that you realize you aren't going to get anything in return. And that's why I'm sure I'm actually in love this time around, cuz that's what love really is. You only give love, you don't expect it back in return.
This girl is fantastic...she's got me inspired to pick my pen back up again and stumble through a few verses after a half-dozen or so years of not writing a scrap of anything. She compliments my personality so well and she's helped me grow in exciting new ways. Even though she's not 'mine' in the sense a girlfriend would be, knowing she's there makes all the difference while I'm out working and stuck in isolation.
Which reminds me - I've got a new idea for a tattoo that I desperately want to get done. Imagine this: a bruised and battered cherub, leaning in exhaustion on his bow, smoking a cigarette and flipping the bird (think of one of those cherubs you'd see on an italian fresco looking like he'd just got finished a barroom brawl). Yeah. So if any of you have got artstic talent, do it up for me and post it here...methinks I'll get it done either just after I take my road trip to LA in april or just after (yes hotcurry, i'm still planning on making the trip
).
Oh, and another thing...any of you know the best way to advertise this trip of mine? Should I start a thread in hook-up so I get places to sleep along the way? Or can you all do your networking thing for me while I'm away and line things up for me?
Check back with y'all in a couple more weeks....time's expiring on this public computer....
ciao
VIEW 10 of 10 COMMENTS
Your girl sounds as though she is good for you even if you aren't dating and there is always a chance that things may swing in your favour in the future,