I'm turning into a bum. Sleeping half the day, and when i do get up i barely eat or move. Damn lethargy. Sometimes I wish I was cold-blooded so that when it was warm I'd get this monster rush of energy to go and do something as opposed to just wanting to lie down and veg all day.
It'd make working for weeks in -40 degree weather total hell, but that'd be a sacrifice I'd be willing to make as its already hell on its own.
Misguided and I went and played some pool with our friend Kevin for a little this evening...the pool hall that I typically enjoy at 3 in the afternoon was sorta divey tonight. Not a great time, but I still managed to enjoy myself a bit.
Countdown's almost over...although I wish I knew exactly what number I should be on as work won't actually call me to go up north until the night before I have to be on the plane. I have been assured however it will be less than 10 days from this wednesday, as that's when I'm getting my confined space safety ticket.
Although the last time I asked for a timeline for how long I'd be working for this winter, I ended up doubling how long I was told...so they just might extend this time anyway and fuck me over. Bah. Stupid oilfield politics crap. I'd quit if the money wasn't so damn good.
As much as I want to stay the course and seek out someone to be with who share's my outlook on life and attitudes about it (so not necessarily someone who wants anything serious), I'm finding myself once again just longing for basic companionship. Someone who I can see everyday and just chat with about unimportant stuff at the same time as the important stuff and still make every word relevant. I want to go to bed at night with her in my arms, wake up and kiss her on the forehead before getting out of bed to make breakfast for both of us. I want to drop her off wherever she's got to be for the day on the way to whatever I'm doing (or out of the way of whatever I'm doing). I want to be excited for when I see her next, and be missing her while she's gone. I want to be in love with her because of her faults and adore her even more when she asks me what I'm looking at when we're going to bed. I want to tell her that when I'm looking at her that way I'm just trying to memorize what she looks like so that if I happen to go blind I'll always have something beautiful to remember.
Now I've got to find someone to be 'her'. le sigh.
It'd make working for weeks in -40 degree weather total hell, but that'd be a sacrifice I'd be willing to make as its already hell on its own.
Misguided and I went and played some pool with our friend Kevin for a little this evening...the pool hall that I typically enjoy at 3 in the afternoon was sorta divey tonight. Not a great time, but I still managed to enjoy myself a bit.
Countdown's almost over...although I wish I knew exactly what number I should be on as work won't actually call me to go up north until the night before I have to be on the plane. I have been assured however it will be less than 10 days from this wednesday, as that's when I'm getting my confined space safety ticket.
Although the last time I asked for a timeline for how long I'd be working for this winter, I ended up doubling how long I was told...so they just might extend this time anyway and fuck me over. Bah. Stupid oilfield politics crap. I'd quit if the money wasn't so damn good.
As much as I want to stay the course and seek out someone to be with who share's my outlook on life and attitudes about it (so not necessarily someone who wants anything serious), I'm finding myself once again just longing for basic companionship. Someone who I can see everyday and just chat with about unimportant stuff at the same time as the important stuff and still make every word relevant. I want to go to bed at night with her in my arms, wake up and kiss her on the forehead before getting out of bed to make breakfast for both of us. I want to drop her off wherever she's got to be for the day on the way to whatever I'm doing (or out of the way of whatever I'm doing). I want to be excited for when I see her next, and be missing her while she's gone. I want to be in love with her because of her faults and adore her even more when she asks me what I'm looking at when we're going to bed. I want to tell her that when I'm looking at her that way I'm just trying to memorize what she looks like so that if I happen to go blind I'll always have something beautiful to remember.
Now I've got to find someone to be 'her'. le sigh.
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She will turn up man, trust me.
On another note, damn man those words are...shit...powerful, the woman that hooks up with you is going to be lucky to have a guy that will do those things to her. You are the fucking man!