dimnova

oh yeah, the moment has since passed... happy valentine's day...



my face hurts so bad
i have so many tears
my eyes won't let them go
i fight so hard to get them out
but they won't leave

i don't feel safe
i can't find my home
lately everything is racing
my days are spent acting
everything is ok
nothing to report today

what happened to that comfort
that sigh of relief
the exhale when you arrive
don't know when i'll get back
that warm fuzzy feeling
that all is content

i squeeze my eyelids
in hopes for a release
i scrunch my nose
i squeeze my cheeks
put my head in my hands
in hope for relief

i could use a good cry
my body don't let me
my eyes won't try

the need to feel wanted
is extreme
where are those that need me
my love is absent
no one to give or receive
who will be here to catch my tears

my breathing is heavy
hands are shaking
my soul hurts from the fear
could this be the mistake i am making
this is what happens
when you need people to help
you end up doing it all yourself