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do you recognize the moments that change your life? sometimes they are so small, and at other times they come crashing down on you that if you didn't notice what the fuck was going on you don't deserve the air you breathe....i've had one of those moments here recently....everything came crashing....the snowball that i pushed childishly down the hill ended up behind me and larger than my own wonderful imagination....where am i at? i am here....alone, sad, scared, defiant, hopeful, strong, etc. my mind is back. i've been trying to escape some things for so long that it's sad...the last couple of years, it's been in the form of a liquid that i tried to escape, and it has landed me here. it's okay. i'll be fine in time, but fucking hell it sucks right now.....ugh