digitalpimp2007

have i hit the fucking bottom?

sure feels like it
lost my job
no work in two months
no money.....really, no money
barely surviving
car inspection is over due
bank account is -$650
unemployment check hasnt come yet
have about 3 weeks to complete a ton of tasks in my house because they are against code. like redoing walls, putting cement down, painting a huge living room ceiling, scraping and repainting the bathroom ceiling. all by myself.
i owe my sister like 200 bucks
45 to something else
i havent paid rent in 4 months
i need a new car for my new job that i start in two weeks
i have bad credit, so i'm gonna have to pay out the ass for a car
my 31st birthday is right around the corner, and i feel like i've not gone anywhere with my life
im not happy about my life
one thing brings me happiness and thats it
i feel like a big pile of shit and this is the only place i can write cause everyone else checks everything else.
my grandmother is super upset about the house, so i'm doing all i can to ease the stress
my mom is getting some surgery in a week or so
my younger sister doesnt do shit, just sleeep all day and make a fuckin mess of the house
the shower in the bathroom has to be repaired, thats 2300 bucks that my nana is paying for
i could just cry...........so much
it will feel better to be out, on the other side of this hell
soon i hope, soon