difranco

pondering life as a spoilt brat..
(current thoughts)
i can taste the sandwich i jus ate.. was nice..
im leaving work tomorrow, will be strange, i almost feel ike ive already left..im scared the new place they wont like me.. on the plus side.. the old people all complimented me on my hair.. apart from joel, but joel is dense and probably didnt even notice anything had changed. i like it. one thing i do like.. thats good.

we'll work it out (baby)

*sigh..
i am suprisingly not tense in my shoulders since saturday night. the backrub was very lovely.. quite unexpected. im just thinking about it.. *squewiffy face*
what shall i do.. if i ever get hold of becky, do i go see her tonight or stay in.. im tired.
(end thoughts)


*so you are with Rawb and besotted with Red, *confused*"
- that makes me smile. the rest of the world is as confused as i am. well.. was.. mmm.

the emotional depravation of a starved heart seeks comfort in many ways. often searching through piles of discarded rubbish to find some sort of memoir to cherish and keep for the sake of the memory of someone who did love them just the way they wanted. that itch only one person knew how to scratch. to understand how to love many a person we just look at the way we love family and friends.. we love in different ways dependant on the person we are regarding; to be involved emotionally with two people does not mean you love either any less-it just means they satisfy different needs (obviously being an ocean apart im not satisfying any sexual needs.. or emotional/physical comfort).. i am.. that star that guides, only cuz it is pretty. the smile that warms, just because it was from a strager. all the pretty things in the world could never touch the comfort you give me.. but i dont say that out aloud, because i am shy.. hesitant and still confused even though i have explained to everyone else perfectly well..

hi.. nice to meet you... im Red..
*sigh

i sound quite mellow dont i?.. mmm

friday i spent 54 pound on a hair cut/dye..
finally ive a haircut i love again and i feel a little more comfortable with myself..
messy short.. with a left hanging tiny to little large side fringe.. with black and a warm purple covering about 2 inches from above my left ear..then only blonde for about an inch.. then purple overlapping and taking over to the right side of my messy hair.. black white blonde and warm purple. mm.