diello

yup...that's a new profile pic.

She's my friend's niece. I've been adopted as the crazy uncle - so to speak.

I've been helping take care of my friend while her son was in Children's Hospital here in Pittsburgh. That's why I havent been around much since the SuperBowl.

So what's been going on? I bunch of crazy stuff...

I'm in a really weird place. I've revisited an old flame recently. I thought I could get through it like an adult...but there is something hanging over me that I can't place. I wonder if I always have and always will love her. I know I made a few mistakes after it happened...but I don't know what came over me.

Thre have been a few time recently where I've tried to look at myself from the outside and not really liked what I saw...

I'm a totally different person than I was...even say 6 months ago. I think it has a lot to do with walking away from the company that I busted my ass to start...but I feel myself getting careless. I feel like I'm two extremes...there are times where I almost get broken taking care of my friends that need it...and then other times where I'm only looking out for myself and I don't care who or what gets in my way.

Shouldnt there by some sort of middle ground?