didyounotice

I don't know about you, but I have this silly habit of always trying to find the song that exactly reflects my actual state of mind. And if I can't point one, I'm changing my dumbass state of mind to fit accordingly to what ever is close to it.

Silly isn't it?

I know, but I can't help it, I guess it is my little obssessive/compulsive side. Harvey Peckar had is coming book, I have lyrics all over this silly head of mine.

But right now, I don't have any clue what I'm feeling. I'm looking and looking, listening to stuff I don't know as well (namely Ben Kweller) and nothing seems close enough right now.It's not sadness, I'm not bored, not happy and sure as hell not challenged by anything, I'm just wandering around. Bret Easton Ellis opened a book with this sentence : "People are afraid to merge on freeways in Los Angeles.". I guess this is as close as an explanation that I can reach right now, except that I am not in LA and pretty damn sure that I am not a spoiled rich cokehead from the 80's. So...I'm confused.

I know, nothing new, ywho cares, but I do care. I can't get it defined enough for me to get through it and I frickin hate feeling stuck like I do right now. 3 months and I don't consider myself over. I've had some other 'meetings', namely one that just came back from Europe, but I never felt this weird this long after a relationship. Is this mourning?

Nah, it sucks all the way around and I missed Emily Haines show tonight because of my stupid job. Gotta catch up with the upcoming of TV on the Radio.

Nevertheless, nighty night y'all, I don't know what to say no more...

Record of the Day : Ben Kweller's self-titled album.

Movie of the day : Killer Klownz from Outta Space, watched it at work today, was fun.