Trying to work out what's best for me in life is so hard😭

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One of my dear friends on here did a post saying he was leaving SG as he felt that it was not the best place for him to be to protect his mental health!! I will keep him in my thoughts and prayers and I will miss him.

This got thinking about is best in my life for my mental health , and physical health, and how can I improve things! I am currently spending wat too much on Onlyfans and Patreon as I like to support the models and others!! I often go through my subscriptions to see which I can cancel but very rarely do. One part of me asks is this a problem and another says 'stop worrying'.

As I am sure most of us have been, I have been in a sort of limbo all this year and feel in a mental rut. On good days I wake up saying I have things to do, plans to make, a book to write and a soul mate to find. Other days I just want to crawl back in to bed and often do. I know i am stronger than this but can't seem to dig myself out of this rut.

Lastly before I start to ramble, which I am sure no one wants, I was a bit annoyed when a model I have followed for a long time asked why I had not joined her Onlyfans ☹ I thought this was a bit disrespectful but that's probably me being over sensitive.

Pray everyone is safe and well❤ special shout out my dear friend @kungfury ! Also shout out to @nanette @thickluvins @felicity @nerwen @ojtheviking @chefdaddy and many more who support me on here❤ it means more than you could know.

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nerwen:
I love this blog post so much and I'm very grateful to you for thinking about me, when you wrote this!❤ I'm totally agree with you and guys, who also commented your post! The first and the most important thing in our lives it's us and only us. Sometimes it's really hard, but what to do. There are good open mind people and not. And often it's not their fault, cuz they grew up in such conditions. These people cannot do otherwise, this is their nature. I try to learn found smth good in every person, and I also very sensitive. I understand what you mean my friend! But unfortunately, for our own good, we need to learn to keep in our lives only those, who sincerely love us and wish only good things with all hearts! Love you and send the best wishes!❤ XX
felicity:
I'm sorry that I just saw this blog now. I don't think you were over sensitive, and you don't need to join every model on Onlyfans, you need to think about you first (maybe it sounds a little selfish, but it's true). You are a very special friend and I feel happy to come back and see you thought about me.

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