Hi everyone!
I know I haven't been active on the site recently I've had some stuff on my mind and couldn't really seem to think of anything else!
Last weekend I went to see the awesome Steel Panther with @mitchymitch93! They are so funny it was literally one of the best gigs I've ever been to.
Next i'm going to see five finger death punch again! Then Halestorm just days later, so will spending a week with @mitchymitch93 again from 1st april!
Hopefully will be meeting @charlie2red in that week too!
Hopefully the weather will be nice and we can get a set done in that time. I'm getting a new tattoo next Friday, so i'm looking forward to that! :) I think it looks really nice and it'll symbolize that I should follow my dreams which is what I intend to do.
I've just been feeling really trapped in my life, I just wish I had the money to get away from it. I really need it right now. My boyfriend and I broke up 2 weeks ago now, it wasn't working out. Thing is we were together nearly 2 and a half years and he's living with me due to problems with his family. We are trying to be friends but i'm really stressed out right now. I'm thinking "what can I do?" but right now it's more I can't actually do anything. It's a strange situation. It began to show just before my 21st birthday. I started missing my ex's best friend for some reason... I had a lot of memories with him and my ex, really good and really bad ones. So I tried talking to him and surprisingly he took it well and we have started talking again. After talking to this guy for a bit my ex started talking to me again and I started to realise I like him a lot more than my boyfriend. Yeah it was fucked up. So we had to break up after that, I still like him but it's like a brother and I couldn't do that to him. I knew I couldn't be with him knowing all this in my head and thinking I can never see him as a boyfriend anymore. It's a bit shit and everyone is judging me for it, I just can't help it... My ex is the only guy I ever was in love with and it brought back a lot of crazy feelings. I was 17/18 when I was with him and we broke up for a load of reasons, but never any that couldn't be resolved. I changed a hell of a lot in that time, I'm more mature now and I'd like to make it better with him again. We are seeing how it goes at the moment, I just find it really weird we can both still like each other after years and change. He's not even the perfect guy, he's far from it. I think I must like that about him. So that's what's been on my mind, it hasn't been easy at all for me.
This weekend I went out with a friend so I could just get used to being single again and not feel as trapped. It was a weird night! I started talking to this girl and she followed me around all night telling everyone we were lesbians and kissing me, it was kind of funny I guess as loads of guys believed it and it stopped her getting chatted up by random guys haha! Then we ended up staying at my ex's friend's house which was also weird considering I didn't know they'd be there in the same place and didn't really know them. Still don't know what they're intentions were with that, some people clearly can't be trusted...
I'm glad you guys like my green hair! It has attracted a lot of attention with random people too! I've dyed my hair like every colour now but never had as many people comment on it as much as the green. It has made people just want to start random conversations on the train etc. Really not used to that haha
Anyway I hope you all understand!
I'll try and be more active from now on.
Thanks again for the support, I've missed you. :)
