diaz

Dear F.

You and I met when I was 12 and you were 14.
We fell in love back then as much as two passionate young teenagers could.
We lost our virginity to each other.
Our song growing up was Metallica Nothing Else Matters.
We broke up only to re unite 10 years later.
We got engaged five years after that.

I really thought you were the one.
We loved each other so much for so long.
It pains me that it is over even though I know it can't work.

I think I need to start a new life, move to Israel.
On my own, for the first time since I was 16 to show myself what I am capable of.

I have been so up and down in the last few days, kissed a couple of boys, gotten black out drunk and gotten tonsilitis due to totally over doing it.

I need to rampage but I also need to calm down and find my center.

I think Israel is the place for me.

I find it so comfortable here.
The people are amazing, the medditeranian is gorgeous, the food is the best I have ever had and because I am jewish it will be easy for me to get in.

I think I want to be here by the end of the year.

Please send me lots of love and hugs, I need it. I am really fragile at the moment.