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diaphanous

Tampa, FL

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Friday Oct 20, 2006

Oct 20, 2006
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Today's mood: angry

I'm angry at the world today...angry that I have to feel like this, angry that I have to deal with this bullshit every single FUCKING day for the rest of my FUCKING life, angry that I feel so alone now, angry that I am so diligent with meds and therapy and getting "rewarded" for it by puking and wooziness and stumbling into walls.

I am so tired of getting back up again.

Yeah, it's a process, but this isn't living. I miss my old life back in Delaware, I miss my sister, I miss <name edited for safety's sake> terribly, I miss just being able to go over to someone's house when the shit hit the fan and sit and be distracted by company, beer, and tv.

I feel like I've fucked up everything I've ever touched.

I don't want anyone to be interested in me ever again, I'll just ruin them like I've ruined everybody else. I don't want to go down that road of pain and hurt and bullshit ever again.

I am so frustrated and full of rage and in a world of pain.
__lex__:
*hug*
Oct 20, 2006

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