diaphanous

quick update....the horrible restlessness + agitation + depression + (now) suicidal ideation has led me to the decision to commit myself to the psychiatric care center at st. joseph's here in tampa. i tried doing something about it tonight at a different hospital (mixed states FTL) but it was a resounding failure in that i didn't see anyone at all because head cases apparently aren't important, no matter how much you emphasize the fact that you're two seconds from driving into oncoming traffic.

so i'm calling them tomorrow whenever i wake up and going over there. i may go in for a few days and then do an intensive outpatient program or what's called partial hospitalization or some combination therein.

either way, at least i'm grateful for the ability to see myself heading rapidly for the deep end before i am floundering around in the water and thinking, wtf?

bet your ass i'm going to make st josephs take me a bit more seriously.

oh and i won't tell you that it was brandon hospital that treated me so crappy.