dexy

sigh.....
life has been a bit confusing and crappy lately.... BUT good at the same time.
i decided i am done with a certain boy.... and that is good and bad. i feel like he was sitting there one day and he said,
"Hey Dexy! C'mere.... i gotta show you something.... "
and i ran down the street with him passed bars and markets and we laughed and rambled on and sped about the night
and then one day we just stopped by the edge of the street and he went,
"wait here.... and i am gonna go right over there. i want you to come, but i think it's best you stay here. i'll let you know when it's safe to come over...."

nah...i can't do it anymore...
and the worst part is, he was so worried about messing up our friendship with other things, he hasn't realised that our friendship is messed up.....
i just need time away....

anyhoo...

other than that, life is pretty ok.
i am working sunday thru friday this week and then off saturday to chuck toilet seats around Slimes with Sam and then back to work Sunday.... hopefully the ink will be a coming on monday or early next week.... weeeee!!

oh!
and i was just trying to figure out... How exactly do you tell someone that you slept with a few times that you have had a massive crush on them for six months? that even tho you were out the door as soon as you both woke up, that leaving was your way of lying? grrrr...
i know.... you just forget it..... grrr....

i think i need a new hobby....