i really don't get it. and probably never will.
is what i'm looking for so impossible? a girl, who is generally nice, loves music, is fairly smart, and is moderately attractive. those are my minimum requirements...am i asking too much? i suppose i must be, considering all of the girls i know who meet and/or exceeed those levels want NOTHING TO DO WITH ME "IN THAT WAY", EVER. all i've ever been to anyone female is good enough to be a friend, nothing more. not that i mind it. i love my female friends. they're some of my best friends and trusted friends. but i really need something more than friends. i already have an overabundance of great friends. i'm all set there.
every day i wake up with something missing. something 99% of the people who have it don't appreciate. it's a surging emptiness that grows exponentially every day. it really makes me feel quite worthless, and constantly whittles away what little self-confidence i have left.
it especially adds up when, say, a "prospect" comes into the picture, then immediately passes over me to go to one of my friends (which has happened dozens of times), then i end up becoming THEIR FRIEND because they're dating my friend. it's an endless cycle.
it also hurts greatly when i have friends who set up my other friends WHO DON'T NEED TO BE SET UP BECAUSE THEY CAN GET DATES EASILY ON THEIR OWN, and they don't even condsider that i may like to go out and have fun at least once a year or so.
i fucking hate my life. more everyday.
is what i'm looking for so impossible? a girl, who is generally nice, loves music, is fairly smart, and is moderately attractive. those are my minimum requirements...am i asking too much? i suppose i must be, considering all of the girls i know who meet and/or exceeed those levels want NOTHING TO DO WITH ME "IN THAT WAY", EVER. all i've ever been to anyone female is good enough to be a friend, nothing more. not that i mind it. i love my female friends. they're some of my best friends and trusted friends. but i really need something more than friends. i already have an overabundance of great friends. i'm all set there.
every day i wake up with something missing. something 99% of the people who have it don't appreciate. it's a surging emptiness that grows exponentially every day. it really makes me feel quite worthless, and constantly whittles away what little self-confidence i have left.
it especially adds up when, say, a "prospect" comes into the picture, then immediately passes over me to go to one of my friends (which has happened dozens of times), then i end up becoming THEIR FRIEND because they're dating my friend. it's an endless cycle.
it also hurts greatly when i have friends who set up my other friends WHO DON'T NEED TO BE SET UP BECAUSE THEY CAN GET DATES EASILY ON THEIR OWN, and they don't even condsider that i may like to go out and have fun at least once a year or so.
i fucking hate my life. more everyday.
keep ur chin up!!! ur a doll and someday u will find someone who deserves ya!!