I'm pretty late to the game blogging about my first SG shootfest. Anxiety and life always in the way of things. But anywho.
Vegas
This was hosted by @zen with help from other amazing babes. I'm currently in the northeast with my camper/home, so I had to fly out. This was the first time I had ever flown alone. It was alot for me, but lived to tell the tale šā¤
I was welcomed in with open arms from the moment I made it to the air bnb. I started meeting all the far off babes that I looked up to and envied so much on social media and here. I struggle with alot of disorders/issues, and just felt small and nothing compared to all these strong, confident, talented babes, with bodies that I've always perceived as perfect, especially compared to myself. This trip was alot of learning for me, bringing a little peace to my issues.
Hearing others having insecurities, ones youd never think would have a need to be insecure, was crazy, and amazing to me. I dont get out much, and have been bullied for my appearance my whole life, so I just figured those "better" than me, couldnt possibly experience it too. Being told my insecurities arent as bad as I think, helped too, only sometimes though, lol, cant seem to rewire it fully, but I'm working on it, and trying to better my body further working with a personal trainer, and taking more time and energy to focus on myself in a life that I always felt called for my efforts to be for everyone but me.
I was fortunate enough to scrape together to shoot two new hopeful sets, both are far better than the first on my end, my photogs are so fucking amazing.
I got to meet the sweetest @cygnet and her set of me brought me to tears, I felt so pretty, and was so lucky @bae did my hair and makeup, I am now forever trying to replicate it and failing. I wanna look like that all the time lol
Spring Fever will hit review around the start of the season, and I can't wait.
Cygnet was amazing to work with, her guidance was so gentle and encouraging and I'm so thankful and highly recommend her to anyone who finds the chance to get to shoot with her.
@Zen and I got to reunite, and each time I feel closer and more loved seeing and talking to her. We had so much fun shooting my second set and while I didnt do as good with my makeup like bae did for my other set, I still love this set and the confidence of working with a friend brings out of my sheepish shell. Zen is so talented, such a hard worker, and puts out so much content for this site its mind blowing. I'm so so thankful for her, and our latest set together, and cant wait to see her again and shoot more. My sets in line with a million others shes editing, so its unnamed and I'm not sure when you all will get to see it, but it will be worth it.
Both these sets, was a big step. I stopped hiding behind my glasses that had become a shield of comfort for me. I brought contacts I got for $1 (scary thought). And felt safe in the care of these talented women to help me look my best and feel like I can be like others I so fucking admire and envy on this site.
I was also so lucky and got to shoot a few ladies as well. I shot an adorable multi of @orbitt and @reznoritis
A solo for @orbitt
And one for @minni
Theres one more little multi of minni and @runegalexia I'm working on too.
I met @breeze , @phianixx , @enjin , @voodoo_nebula too, incredibly beautiful and smart and funny ladies, I got to be roomies with @spynk and our late night giggles lifted my soul.
This was an incredible weekend, one that was far too short for me. I miss these ladies, having great talks, goofing off, creating amazing content, adulting and going out to dinner and drinks. I felt so welcomed by complete strangers, who I feared would look down on me, and instead lifted me up higher than I felt I deserved.
It was super important to me for so many reasons, and I cant wait for the next shootfest I'm lucky enough to go to in January shortly before my birthday, in Nashville. And get to see my bebe @janiebear once again, who I also would have never met without Suicide girls.
Miss you ladies, until next time(s). š
Thank you for creating this community @missy and co.
@rambo.
