I shot my next set with @zen this past Sunday, and I'm so excited. I've never felt so beautiful in photos like these and I hope everyone will like it. It's not ready to submit yet, as shes got a full plate so I'm in the que for edits. But the wait is going to be so worth it. This knocks my super newb first set deep into the dirt. I dont think I could have found someone better to shoot with.
I've been absent here again, oh well. But I'll be posting some more here and there now that this term with school is just about over and I can breathe AGAIN. It's been a rough month with caring for my sick great aunt with her alzheimers on top of regular life stuff, school stuff, photography/modeling practice, and trying to make sure to squeeze in more self care. I'm working on putting things I used to love doing, back into my life/routines. I am doing roller coasters in my head on my self worth, but I feel like I'm getting better. I feel better about myself more. I've had some big crashes on my feelings about my body, but I'm trying hard to remind myself what's irrational.
I have 3 things I dont like about myself, my teeth/smile, my breasts, and my belly. I'm excited, I ordered the impression kit to start my invisible braces journey. So hopefully within the next year or however those work, I'll have a smile I can be proud of. As for the other two things I wish to change, eventually I'll find the secret to growing money and I'll have the 11k for the mommy makeover surgery š š for now I work hard to hide what I hate, accept what I cant change, and show off what I love about myself.
We accepted jobs at the campground we loved so much last summer, so we get to move back to NH from may-Oct. Were still selling the winnebago, and were shopping for a travel trailer to call home now. Were definitely still in love with and dead set on the fulltime RV and travel life. I'm so happy things are finally starting to work out and fall into place this year. After everything we dealt with with trying to get out west, and then not being able to actually enjoy it yet with other issues going on (we tried to rent a house, and the landlords turned out to be scamming psychos). Plans for where we will move and live next winter have not been set yet. But I'm thankful to get time where I'm most familiar and comfortable, it is relieving. I have so many people to work with this summer on both sides of the camera and I cant wait.
