Once again I'm up way too early. I miss Baby and can't see him till late tonight. I keep having these horrible dreams of him cheating on me. And then I start thinking all this crap. What if this... what if that... I hate it so much. All I want to do is cry.
I really hope it's nice out today so I can attempt to go out and do some stuff. Take my mind off of things I probably shouldn't even be worrying about.
I know Baby wouldn't cheat on me but these dreams just keep on happening. Then I get scared that he is or he has. Then I think of ways to break up with him or to just disappear and never let him know. Like just pack up and leave and never say good bye. But then the thought of it kills me. I cant bare the thought of living without him.
I really hope it's nice out today so I can attempt to go out and do some stuff. Take my mind off of things I probably shouldn't even be worrying about.
I know Baby wouldn't cheat on me but these dreams just keep on happening. Then I get scared that he is or he has. Then I think of ways to break up with him or to just disappear and never let him know. Like just pack up and leave and never say good bye. But then the thought of it kills me. I cant bare the thought of living without him.
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anubis:
Thats right, thinking like this will lead to bad decisions.
toxicvixen:
it always sucks to have that fear that the person you love is (or has) strayed. try not to read too much into the dreams. you'll just end up driving yourself crazy... dreams usually represent something as opposed to being exactly what they appear. not sure if that at all made sense. anyway, maybe you would feel better if you talked to him about your dreams. whatever you do, don't accuse him of anything. good luck! and remember, they are just dreams!