devilyn

First off, I want to let everybody know that I haven't given up on this whole thing - it's just that I have had a lot of SHIT happen to me sincethe middle of April. What happened is I got a case of pnuemonia and also a bacterial blood infection. From that combination I also came down with meningitous. All at the same time too. So needless to say I was in I.C.U. for about two months and I have been out of the hospital for about two months. The whole episode fucked me up pretty bad; I lost about twenty pounds, they shaved my head so my hair is real short and black now, and my circulation got really bad from being bedridden for so long that I literally had to learn to walk again. I can walk okay now for the most part, I just have really sharp pains in my hands and feet that prevent me from being able to walk alot or do too much activity for awhile. And seeing as I don't have the internet at my house and I can't walk the distance right now that I used to to use the computers at some other apartment complex, I haven't been able to write in awhile.
But I have read all the comments everyone has made on all my pictures and I am so flattered. They have actually made me feel a lot better. I've been so self-conscious and I absolutely hate how I look with my short hair and the weight loss and everything that I haven't been going out at all. I've been in hibernation trying to gain back weight but it has always been hard for me to do that. If this whole ordeal wouldn't have happened I would have responded to each and every comment because they all help me feel not as insecure. So I hope noone thinks I've snubbed them and I certainly don't want to discourage any comments coming in. But sadly enough, I won't be able to take more pictures for a little while. I'd like to but I just can't.
And then on top of everything else, my roomate and I got evicted and today is actually my moving day. We have decided to go our seperate ways so in a couple hours I'm putting my stuff in storage and will be roaming around on my friends couches for a little bit ubtil I find a place.
So hopefully this all doesn't sound like a sob story but more like my reality since April 21st. I do feel much better now that I have gotten the chance to explain what's been going on with me to everyone. But my fingers are hurting now so..........I just wantes to thank you all for the compliments - they made me blush as red as my hair used to be.