devilyn

So I have an update from that guy who recently stopped seeing me. It turns out that he had just let me go on thinking that he didn't want to see me because I wasn't attractive anymore or he wasn't attracted to me anymore or whatever the fuck. But in all actuality, he didn't speak to me for awhile and wasn't even able to face me because he had been sleeping with my roomate the whole time I was in the hospital. I guess for a whole month and a half or so and then after I got out the guilt and remorse started to eat him up so he wasn't able to face me. I sure know how to pick them don't I? I'll give him credit though, out of the five or six possible routes he could have taken as far as dealing with me was concerned after he fucked her the first time, he did choose to tell me and stop seeing me because of it. So the guy has a conscious, it just happens to be one with a two month delay on it. Most guys I know would have gone on sleeping with me and that's that. Cause i never would have found out if he din't tell me. So anyway, yes he gets credit for that but fuck him anyway. And that would be all I care to say on the subject. Hhhmmm... what else? Oh yeah, my birthday is tomorrow. The big 2-4. Alright. No more milestones to look forward to. Well, except for 25, I guess which would be when I believe I can legally rent a U-Haul myself. I don't have to many friends anymore and the one real close friend of mine (Melissa- she's the one who shot my pictures for me) is out of town doing a temp job for the next couple of weeks. Besides that i don't really hang out with anyone else for the most part so I've kinda been nervous about my birthday coming up because if I spend it by myself that's totally gonna kill me for awhile afterwards.