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I am so bored, I just spent both of my days off setting around this god forsaken house. I hate this house! I can't do anything I want here. I can't have friends over, I can't drink, hell I can't even bring a porno in this fuckin house. And why, because my family is "religous". Like hell. My sister Amanda and I were the ones that got my family back into church about four or five years ago. I was the one who wanted to become a pastor. Not anymore. I've seen how much Hypocricy is in the so called "Christian Church." Orgainized religion is a joke. Yes, I still call myself a Christian, but I follow my own rules. Alcohol is not a sin. Nor is sex. Nor is having friends over until 2am then going to work at 8am. I am not a bad person, and I'm tired to being treated like everything I do is wrong. That is the biggest load of shit I've ever heard. I want to move. I want to move so far away from here. Where no one knows who I am, or who my exwife is, or my parents.

I not sick anymore, thank god. I'm just really bored, pissed off and lonely. I am the type of person, who can't be alone. Ever since me and my ex split, I've had my good days and my bad. Today, is one of my bad. All I want to do is kick back, relax, watch tv and drink my thoughts away or just go out with some friends and have a good time. But I don't get to do either one. because one, I can't drink at home. And two, my friends are pretty much all leaving me to go back to school soon, so their familys are demanding more time.

As princess has found, I have a bit of a poet in me. Here is some more, just for you, beautiful.

For Love

Pain is a virtue.
Love is a curse.
For I am cursed to all mankind
And virtued to the same.
My life is not my own
Do with me what you will
I beg, curse me once more
So the virtue has worth