well...patience is one of my weaker points...and all good things come to those who wait, i guess. only way to find out is to wait this out and see what happens but all i know right now is that i am miserable and i shouldnt be! i have finally talked to the guy i have waited for almost a year to talk to and a couple of days ago i felt like i was on top of the world. however now it seems like its all just crashing back down on top of me. so many things go thru my head, all i can think of is him. i know there is reasoning behind all of this...and i have yet to figure it out. hell i may never know....brian i am soooo miserable not talking to you and i am sorry for the things i said yesterday. i have missed you like crazy and i do want you in my life..i respect your decissions and i trust your logic behind anything you do. i just hope that everything will work out for the best and nobody gets hurt too bad in the end. 
lucenteen:
awww 
devildoll_2k2:
well i guess it is great that it all did work out in the end. because if you didnt have a gf when i told you that i liked you then i wouldnt have met the most wonderful person in the world that i am with now. to me anyways. i never imagined that i could have so much fun. and things are going great. i really like him a lot and i think that this is where i need to be right now in my life. i want to thank you tho ...for the confidence that you helped me build and showing me how to open up to ppl. otherwise i dont think i would be where i am at this point. sigh, god damnit i just never thought that i could be so happy.