devildoll23

I can't sleep... the insomnia is coming back... oh joy . My brother's friend had a talk with me about how I must "get" so many guys because im a decent looking chick with an awesome car... UGH!! Oh well... he meant well i suppose. I hate insomnia... you feel so incredibly exausted but you can't sleep, today i did my brother a huge favor and picked him up at some guy's house... im a kick ass sister. Sometimes i hate the fact that i do absoloutly everything for everyone eventhough it bothers the hell out of me. I'm way too passive.. in some situations. I just don't give a shit about myself... well wait... i do give a shit about myself to a certain extent but when it comes to family and friends i always put their needs in front of my own. For instance, one of my best friends.... im always there for her, whenever she has problems with her boyfriend im always the person to be there for her to talk to. I take her out of her house so she can get away from that environment and bring her over my house so she can relax and try to take her mind off of things, but once she talks to her boyfriend she just ditches me all the time and does whatever. Oh well, i understand, it's okay. She loves the guy and she's probably going to marry him in the future... but it just kind of sucks when i do so much... everything just gets so fustrating. Next weekend my parents are going to florida to look for a house... they want to move to florida after i move to philadelphia... my cousin Tina who i absoloutly love is coming to chill with me for two days she's a penelope cruise look a like........ ok how jealous am i?? She got all the good genes!! But we both have the same hair... which is awesome ... oh well i suppose i should go try to sleep but i just know it's not going to happen...