devildoll23

Ugh... getting older sucks... especially since you realize all the shit that you had to put up with for the past couple years of your life. I seriously don't know how I did it all... i've never felt so miserble in my life before... well actually i have im just over exagerating at the moment. I don't think any of my family members or friends realize how much I care about them... i would do anything for any of them, and I could careless about what happens to me. See... this is what happens when i get snowed in my house all alone, i end up thinking about depressing things, or how much i miss my family in portugal. My grandmother is amazing... she's 85 years old and she's such a strong woman. Her husband left her with 7 children... and she sold stuff illegally to the spanish during world war 2... she beat the living crap out of a cop that was trying to arrest her for it. She's done so much for herself, she even makes moonshine. She's so amazing, and i love her so incredibly much. Blasted birthday... i could give a shit about my birthday. I would give so much just to see my grandmother today just so i could hug her and tell her how much i love her. I wish my cousins where here right now because they mean so incredibly much to me... even if they like making fun of my crazy ass clothes. oh... 18 mins until it's January 23rd... ugh... oh well.... goodnight everyone