devil_bitch

I am now back in the land of the living. I am getting out of the house. I am standing up AND walking. This is a good thing. My mom is safe at home and getting settled into a routine. Things are going along swimingly. I went to the Dave Matthews concert last night and I have to say the magic that Dave and I once shared has changed. There are good moments but it is just not the same show anymore. Maybe that is a good thing? We all change and evolve. But the good news is that I stood for a few hours and I walked around. I hate it when my back hurts. I can't do anything and it pisses me off. So I am off and limping lol. Friday night I am going to see Swill with sbmick. I am ready to finaly meet him and hang out. Saturday I am going to the Rennasaince Festival with two of my good friends and *clears throat* God help us all a date. I hope that things go well. Whatever that means. I just want things to happen the way they are supposed to. I haven't been on a real date in about 10 years. Sure I have hung out with guys. But you know I am tired of hanging out. I am getting to old for that. So I have to remember to act like myself. Not try to fit into what I think will make the situation go smoothly. Eh. I hope that makes sense to someone. So may the Gods grant me common sense that day. HA. Ok...moving on.

You know he really does read these journal entries. Damn me and my need to be so honest with my feelings.

Today was a good day. I hung out with some friends I haven't seen in a couple of months. The ones who went to Canada for a couple of weeks. Yeah well I got to see pictures and video from the trip. They are moving to Canada next year. Trying to get me to come too.... I don't know how I feel about that. Maybe if it was just me and my son. I can't leave my mom and I wouldn't want to take her away from her home. Anyway.... my friend gave me a massage and got me high. Life is good.

Oh I can't go to the SG Burlesque show in Lawrence on 10/24 because HIM is playing St. Louis that night. I will be envoloped in hot Finnish men.

Good night babies. Everyone have a happy happy weekend.