So I slept through my alarm this morning and ended up being an hour late. Now the only reason I got up was because one of my coworkers called me. She wasn't even at work Ok. The stupid fucker who works at our main store which is right down the hall, called our manager at home on a Sunday morning to tell her that I wasn't there and that they didn't have a number for me. Which is total bullshit by the way. The number is posted in the office, not to mention one of the other girls that was there I hang out with pretty regular and has my number in her cell. Anyway. Said manager calls up the girl I was working with today and asked her if she could come in early because I hadn't shown up yet and nobody had my number. This is the conversation that I woke up to this morning.
L-Hello. Kaileigh are you ok?
Me-Yeah why?
L-Well it's 11:00 and you're not at work?
Me-Oh shit.
L-Yeah. Yah. Well -manager A- called me and asked me to come in early because you weren't there and nobod could find your phone number.
Me-That's fucking bullshit.
L-I know it's total bullshit. You're number is fucking posted everywhere. Well, I said that I would call you because I had your cell phone number but I didn't want to give it to her. And I wanted to make sure that you everything was ok.
Ok well I see you at work in a little bit when I come in at 12:00. Later dude.
So I was in a pissy fucking mood for most of the day. One, I was still kind fucked up from the night before. Two, that was fucking bullshit. My number is everywhere. And the fucking girl that ended up opening my store this morning had my number in her damn cell phone that was in her purse. Why instead of making an effort to locate my number did this asshole decide to call the manager AT HOME ON A DAMN SUNDAY MORNING? I am thinking of turning in my two weeks notice. Shit more like fuck you I am outta here notice. I am really sick of the owners and the manager. They are just mean hateful selfish evil people. And every fucking day is me trying to not to berate, spit on, or fucking crack these people's skulls open in some way. It is time to go before I say or do something that I can get arrested for.
I know that I really need to work on controlling my temper. I need to stop being so damn angry all the time and at everyone. But people make it so hard. Some people you just can't be nice to ya know. Some people don't respect your kidness. Sometimes people need to see something ugly before they fully understand how to treat others. Ah well now that I have just shown you the dark side of me....
MOOOVVVIINNGGG OOOONNNNNN!!
If you remember I have been working at my friends photography studio on my days off. Which might explain my crankiness having been working 7 days a week for about a month now. But I need the cash. Anyway I can work more days there until October some time. That will give me time to find something else and one shop I know is hiring for weekends and there hrs are like Sat 11-6 and Sun 12-5. A lot shorter than the place I am out now.
I need to make some type of change and soon. I am also starting to feel like I need to have some big life change. I just need to learn to accept change. This is my problem. I fight change at every turn until I am forced to change or go down. Does this make sense to anyone else? Please tell me that I am not the only person who thinks this way.
Oh and I am going to get some funky hair cut on Friday. If I can get an appointment with this girl. My hair definately needs a change. I hate having short hair but I need to cut it for my hair's health. Too many split ends and breakage. So I have to cut it to save it. But I hate having short hair. I just don't feel that heavy women should have short hair. Long hair makes the face look thinner. That and I really just want to have long hair like when I was a little kid. Well everyone tells me that I would look so cute with my hair cut. So I am going to give it a shot. But I want a cool hair style for once. Something funky. We shall see. And I will post pictures when it is done.
Good night babies. I will try to be more enthusiastic tomorrow.
Pretty good drawing of the hottie Joaquin.
L-Hello. Kaileigh are you ok?
Me-Yeah why?
L-Well it's 11:00 and you're not at work?
Me-Oh shit.
L-Yeah. Yah. Well -manager A- called me and asked me to come in early because you weren't there and nobod could find your phone number.
Me-That's fucking bullshit.
L-I know it's total bullshit. You're number is fucking posted everywhere. Well, I said that I would call you because I had your cell phone number but I didn't want to give it to her. And I wanted to make sure that you everything was ok.
Ok well I see you at work in a little bit when I come in at 12:00. Later dude.
So I was in a pissy fucking mood for most of the day. One, I was still kind fucked up from the night before. Two, that was fucking bullshit. My number is everywhere. And the fucking girl that ended up opening my store this morning had my number in her damn cell phone that was in her purse. Why instead of making an effort to locate my number did this asshole decide to call the manager AT HOME ON A DAMN SUNDAY MORNING? I am thinking of turning in my two weeks notice. Shit more like fuck you I am outta here notice. I am really sick of the owners and the manager. They are just mean hateful selfish evil people. And every fucking day is me trying to not to berate, spit on, or fucking crack these people's skulls open in some way. It is time to go before I say or do something that I can get arrested for.
I know that I really need to work on controlling my temper. I need to stop being so damn angry all the time and at everyone. But people make it so hard. Some people you just can't be nice to ya know. Some people don't respect your kidness. Sometimes people need to see something ugly before they fully understand how to treat others. Ah well now that I have just shown you the dark side of me....
MOOOVVVIINNGGG OOOONNNNNN!!
If you remember I have been working at my friends photography studio on my days off. Which might explain my crankiness having been working 7 days a week for about a month now. But I need the cash. Anyway I can work more days there until October some time. That will give me time to find something else and one shop I know is hiring for weekends and there hrs are like Sat 11-6 and Sun 12-5. A lot shorter than the place I am out now.
I need to make some type of change and soon. I am also starting to feel like I need to have some big life change. I just need to learn to accept change. This is my problem. I fight change at every turn until I am forced to change or go down. Does this make sense to anyone else? Please tell me that I am not the only person who thinks this way.
Oh and I am going to get some funky hair cut on Friday. If I can get an appointment with this girl. My hair definately needs a change. I hate having short hair but I need to cut it for my hair's health. Too many split ends and breakage. So I have to cut it to save it. But I hate having short hair. I just don't feel that heavy women should have short hair. Long hair makes the face look thinner. That and I really just want to have long hair like when I was a little kid. Well everyone tells me that I would look so cute with my hair cut. So I am going to give it a shot. But I want a cool hair style for once. Something funky. We shall see. And I will post pictures when it is done.
Good night babies. I will try to be more enthusiastic tomorrow.
Pretty good drawing of the hottie Joaquin.
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Change... change is the only constant.
:just wanted to clarify what you meant by this: "But whether we can or even should tap into this source through magic is a touch and go matter with me.":
Human vanity is to think that we are not just a something in this world, but that we are THE something in this world. We seem to think that everything revolves around us. Therefore we think we are the direct line to divinity and have the right to do whatever we want without consequence. Perhaps if there is 'Magick', then who is to say that we are meant to even touch it or use it? Not a matter of fear, but instead a healthy respect. What do you think?
Just a matter of opinion here... but the important thing is to understand and see. Only through seeing the way things are can we truly understand and grow. People fight to hard against their nature. Ahh wax on, wax off Daniel son...
"What do you consider magick?"
I guess that is the important question... I guess in this instance I am refering to the word magic as spells and craftwork done to influence and alter the world around you. Love spells, luck spells, bindings, and the like. I think that even in prayer these are not things people should be asking for. "Please give me that hottie I met on Suicide Girls.." WAIT! Maybe I should start asking for this...
"SO I would say that the touching of magick would depend entirely on one's intentions and their selfishness. I think that the sources of the Universe are here for us to share in. We give to the Universe and in turn she gives to us. To me that is the deepest form of respect."
I guess it all comes down to intent... Very well put... very.
"Oh goodness I hope you don't think that I am totally looney."
Definetly NOT! If you are then we can be Looney Together... cause I just ain't right.