Still feel shitty. Still hate. I am just so full of anger and I have no idea why. Anger and apathy. How these things can coexist so easily together I will not understand.
I have to work tomorrow. Happy Fucking 4th. I am not sure if I am going to be doing anything after work. I was invited to a friends but I am not in the mood to deal with people. Perhaps tomorrow will be different.
Thanks for listening everyone and offering encouragement on my rants. I am just at a loss. I hate feeling this way but what bugs me is that I don't know what triggers it anymore. There used to be a reason. Now I am just sad and angry and lonely. Bitterness. Maybe that is what it really is. I am just plain and simply BITTER. JADED.
Night.
Happy Fourth to everyone. May you not shoot off any fingers or toes.
I have to work tomorrow. Happy Fucking 4th. I am not sure if I am going to be doing anything after work. I was invited to a friends but I am not in the mood to deal with people. Perhaps tomorrow will be different.
Thanks for listening everyone and offering encouragement on my rants. I am just at a loss. I hate feeling this way but what bugs me is that I don't know what triggers it anymore. There used to be a reason. Now I am just sad and angry and lonely. Bitterness. Maybe that is what it really is. I am just plain and simply BITTER. JADED.
Night.
Happy Fourth to everyone. May you not shoot off any fingers or toes.
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minceir:
Take a holiday somewhere, and have some time to yourself. Or at least go to a gym and start hitting a few bags. 
devil_bitch:
Mini update...going to the party tomorrow means driving to Independence out by Independence Center. Ugh. Which means that I won't be able to drink or smoke. I dont know. We shall see what happens.